A good crazy life...

Sometimes life just gets crazy...

Ever feel that way? Everything is going slowly and smoothly, and then all of a sudden there are deadlines galore and an endless supply of good things to do.

I have lived in this new city for over six months; I must be feeling more at home because that familiar "feeling overwhelmed" feeling has returned. For the first few months down here I didn't feel as though I knew anyone or as though anyone knew me. That is slowly changing as friendships develop. Work is demanding yet enjoyable. Yesterday morning I led worship for the first time at one of our team meetings. My one class at seminary can sometimes be a bit overwhelming - I read the whole Pentateuch and study notes for a quiz I took at the library tonight. And yet, peace pervades in my present weariness...

I actually enjoy having more than I can handle. When I feel like I can handle everything, I easily fall into self-sufficiency and spiritual apathy. One of my prayers is, Lord, please keep me desperate for you and increasingly dependent on you.

When I was browsing through Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, and Deuteronomy, a lot of things stood out to me. One thing in particular was Moses' dependent leadership. God spoke directly with Moses on a regular basis. Moses enjoyed His fellowship, shared in His suffering of leading a stubborn obstinate people (at times putting his own life on the line), and obeyed God's commands. When the Israelites rebelled against God and challenged his leadership, Moses simply fell on his face. Moses fought God's battles and let God fight his battles. Moses lived a life of worship, a life of service to God.

I am so grateful to live in 2006 AD... the veil of the tabernacle has lifted and I can enter into the holy presence of God because of the blood Jesus Christ shed at the cross and the righteousness of Jesus Christ imputed to me. I have a priest who is greater than Moses or Abraham... I have a Father who loves me enough to discipline me... a Friend who is always with me... and the Holy Spirit within me. He gives me strength and wisdom when I have very little of my own. I am a daughter, a princess of the King of kings.

So, sometimes life gets crazy... and I'm grateful.